I’m terrified of losing you.
You were crossing my mind throughout the day.
I know the pain of these anniversaries, and I know I can’t be around to help you, as badly as I wish to be, but I hope you’re keeping your head above water.
I want you to love me.
I want you to trust me enough to let me love you, and I want you to stay here with me so we can build a life together. That’s what I want.
|—||Francine Rivers, Redeeming Love (via quotes-shape-us)|
I don’t want to see anyone.
I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done something wrong, something so huge I can’t even see it, something that’s drowning me. I am inadequate and stupid, without worth. I might as well be dead.
A savage desire for strong emotions and sensations burns inside me:
a rage against this soft-tinted, shallow, standardized and sterilized life, and a mad craving to smash something up, a department store, say, or a cathedral, or myself.
|—||Hermann Hesse (via carpethedamndiem)|